Not in so many words of course. It’s more a feeling - a knowing - that whatever I do is never quite good enough.
Criticism sticks readily but compliments bounce off - downplayed and quickly forgotten. I'm often waiting to be 'found out'.
The antidote is to have stronger sense of who I am but building self-esteem takes time and work - it’s not an easy thing.
So to help, I built a box.
Somewhere to keep wins, milestones and the good, positive things people sometimes say about me - a box of 'boosts'. If I’m not ready to accept them at the time I can come back and read them later. Let them settle and sink in.
And who knows? Perhaps over time, I'll be able to remind myself of those things more readily and I'll quiet the critic in my head.
I know I’m far from being the only person to feel this way, so if you’re a 'fraud' like me then there’s a box for you too...